I’m back, but not very much better.

It’s been about 3 weeks since I lost my day job. I was fired for something so ridiculous that I can barely believe it myself, and on top of that, it’s something I had nothing to do with. I don’t know what the real reason is, but it’s not what they accused me of – can’t be since I didn’t do it. I believe I’ve been in shock and am only now coming out of it – time seems to be flying by. For 13 years I got up and went to work, busted ass and tried to be a great employee. I did not ever love the job, but it was a good one and I was good at it.  I also made a lot of money – but I never prepared, so I might lose my house and have to move away from all my friends. Just goes to show you – don’t rely on your own innocence to save you, because sometimes, it doesn’t matter. Sometimes, they’re going to fuck you anyway.

Luckily, I still have the DBT sending me a small but much appreciated check every week, although I try not to rely on that either, bands being a business that is only consistent in that they are never consistent. I make some money with freelance, and I’m constantly on the hunt for a new job. I’d love to stay in Athens a couple more years, at least – I love this town, and I love my house. However, there’s very little chance I’ll be able to find something that pays even half what the last job did – so for now, I am living on borrowed time and the tiny nest egg I had built for my future.

I would much prefer to start my own business now that the corporate world has rejected me, but I’ll be damned if I have a single plausible idea. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to spend 14 hours a day on the computer. Being of the real world would be a vast improvement. I need inspiration, support, and knowledge. I need determination and drive. I need to be smart.

Instead, I sit here wishing I could think of one single good reason to get out of bed tomorrow.

 

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